Nityananda Gauranga Hare Krsna
All glories to Swami Gaurangapada! All glories to Srilla Prabhupada! All glories all glories to Nitaai and Gaura Naam!
Nityananda Gauranga Hare Krsna.
Today is Ratra-yatra, great festival of Lord Jaganattha, Lord of Universe. Today we had rare oportynity to realize that He is Jagannatha, Ruler and Omnipotent Lord, Supreme Controlor, and completely independent Lord and that His pure devotees and spiritual master are most merciful.
Sorry if my post will be subjective or without some precise order, I am writing what I am feeling in hope to share some small realisations with devotees who are fortunate to be in contact with Swami and Nitaai and Gaura Naam chanting process.
om ajnana timirandasya jnana-jnanan salakaya
caksur unmilitam yena tasmai sri gurave namah
"I offer my humble obeisance unto my dear spiritual master who with pure spiritual knowledge has illuminated my consciousness which was covered by nescience."
It is said that Lord Gauranga Mahaprabhu, dancer of Navadvipa, is known to be mahavadanyaya or most merciful. But that is not true! Most merciful are His pure devotees and pure devotees of Lord Nityananda, avadhuta. Today we witnessed that guru-krpa or mercy of spiritual master is everything.
jogyata-vicare, kichu nahi pai,
tomara karuna - sara
"If you examine me, you will find no qualities. Your mercy is all that I am made of."
That is true. We do not possess any good quality. Our only good fortune is that we came in contact with pure devotee, with our spiritual master. Nothing else.
I am puppet in maya's hand in complete illusion. But my Gurudeva have strong desire to bring me toward lotus feet of Lord Nitaai and his desire to help us is so strong that we are getting Lords mercy only because of that. He is introducing us to Lord, pray to Him to accept us, our only link with Supreme.
guru-krsna-prasade paya bhakti-lata-bija
Guru-krpa, mercy of Gurudeva, it is everything. Seed of the creeper of devotional service may be received only via mercy of pure devotee and Supreme Lord.
We rejected Krsna and we are trying to imitate Him. We want to control and enjoy this material world. We made zillions aparadhas toward Lord in almost unlimited previous births. How many pain we gave Him? How many pain we gave to our Gurudeva when he is mercifully came here for us? He took this birth to deliver Nitaai and Gaura Naam to this world and to deliver us, fallen jivas back to home, to connect us with Supreme Lord.
That is topmost mercy. We are foolish, fallen souls completely under influence of maya, but our fortune is that we came in contact with our spiritual master.
tate krsna bhaje, kare gurura sevana
maya-jala chute, paya krsnera carana
[Cc Madhya, 22.25]
"If the conditioned soul engages in the service of the Lord and simultaneously carries out the orders of his spiritual master and serves him, he can get out of the clutches of maya and become eligible for shelter at Krsna's lotus feet."
We do not have any other way of getting out of maya. We should dive deap into Naam only to please our Gurudeva. If Nitaai and Gaura Naam become our life and soul, if we become unstoppable in our chanting we will please our Gurudeva.
I have my ups and downs in spiritual life. Many lessons learned on hard way. Many lessons will be learned also.
Spiritual life is not easy thing. That is because we are conditioned, falllen. We can not taste sugar because we are eating salt. But Lord Nitaai gave us His most intimate associate in form of our Gurudeva to help us. That is our wealth.
nitaiyer carana satya,tahara sevaka nitya
"The only eternal truth in this world is the two lotus feet of Lord Nityananda and the servants of These feet are the eternal and immortal associates of the Lord."
If we dive into Naam, best we can we will be able to satisfy Gurudeva and whole guru-parampara and via Their mercy attain all perfection or pure devotional service. That is process.
Mercy of guru is all what we have. My hearth melted, Gurudeva under your mercy. You kindly accepted most fallen person under your shelter. You are giving everything. And what I am giving to you. Nothing. What I can give? Only cry out Nityananda Gauranga and pray to Them to help me to someday understand particle of your glory and to be part of your mission. You mercifully pull me back and gave me everything.
Today I have witnesed to exstraordinary manifestation of your causeless mercy. In your post dated 2007-04-21 you wrote to me:
"...They confer Their supreme causeless mercy on the soul without considering whether the soul is qualified or not or whether the soul has passed through the different stages of saadhan bhakti. "
I will never be able to success in spiritual life with my own efforts or by practicing perfect sadhana. My only hope is within you, in your mercy. I may try to chant and embrace vaisnava culture and etiquette, but only with your mercy that may bring some result.
You said today that this is just beginning of spiritual journey. Our only ticket is Naam. You gave me Naam evan I am most fallen and useless person. You gave me Naam evan I was not wearing tilaka, tulsi beads or vaisnava dress. You gave me Naam evan I tried to hide and escape. That is your causeless mercy.
Today you gave me new hope and new life. Today you bestowed your causeless mercy upon my brother and his wife, (Dayal-Nitaai das and Jagannatha dasi) and other devotees. . You are so merciful, more mercifull then cintamani gem, philosopher's stone�capable of transforming base metal into solid gold, because you are able to transform our iron hearths into pure golden-like Nitaai-Gauraa prema.
I am praying to all vaisnavas to help us in our spiritual journeey and bless us. Only then we will be able to make any progress. Thank you dear vaisnavas on your blessings and good wishes. Only via your mercy we may attain some success.
Sorry for making this post long and unorganized. I want to write much more, but have job to do - to chant my rounds,
Nityananda Gauranga Hare Krsna
Hoping to become servant of vaisnavas, guru and Naam
Ishana Thakura das
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