Re: Multiple Questions

Nityananda Gauranga Hare Krishna!

Dear Guruji, Bhakta Mihir and devotees, please accept my humble obeisances. All glories to Sri Sri Guru and Gauranga.

Thank you for your desire to know me and in return I can say that I am always here to serve you to the best of your spiritual interest.

I have chanted the Hare Krishna Maha Mantra for almost 25 years with a flickering mind, sometimes enthusiastically engaged sometimes indifferently detached. Because of my countless offenses of so many lifetimes it seemed that I didn�t make any progress at all. I knew that it would be better to be initiated by a bonafide guru in the Gaudya Vaisnava tradition but every time when I thought I had �found� my guru, he fell down soon thereafter. That was often quite frustrating (but also very eye-opening to be careful) and I kept praying to Lord Sri Krishna if He would be so kind to allow me to find �my guru�. Afterwards everything became completely clear. In 2004 when Swami Gaurangapada came into my life I instantly knew that he was my eternal guru. I embraced the Mantrarajas �Nityananda� and �Gauranga� right away and my whole spiritual life made suddenly sense to the core of my being. I remember chanting the first round �Nityananda� and every syllable increased my happiness so intensely that at the end of that round I was spontaneously dancing with tears in my eyes. When I chanted my first round �Gauranga� I nearly could stand the indescribable intense spiritual feelings I had and it was as if all the Vedas and Puranas opened their hearts to this insignificant soul. After the Mantrarajas I experienced the Hare Krishna Maha Mantra completely different than ever before. I found myself halfway on a hill on the border of a deep forest and a cloud of dust ascended from the hooves of thousands of Surabhi cows in the valley. When I looked up I saw the brightly radiating feet of Lord Sri Krishna and a little bit of His yellow dhoti, I didn�t dare to look up at that moment but I was well aware that He was playing His divine flute and behind the bushes and trees were the gopas and gopis hiding, trying to stay unnoticed and to get a glimpse of the whole scenery. It is obvious that I try here to describe the indescribable in my attempt to give you an idea of what happened to me when I came in contact with Guruji and the Mantrarajas.

I waited a year and received official initiation in 2005 from my eternal guru Swami Gaurangapada and later I received also second initiation from him. Before I met guruji I had a hard time finishing my rounds of the Hare Krishna Maha Mantra. After I met guruji it became a feast to chant and I can�t wait for the early morning hours to chant my rounds. Over time I have slowly increased the quantity of my chanting, little baby steps at the time and very gradually. Over the last year I am blessed to chant 64 rounds of Nityananda, and 64 rounds of Gauranga, and 32 rounds of Hare Krishna Hare Krishna Krishna Krishna Hare Hare Hare Rama Hare Rama Rama Rama Hare Hare. I didn�t increase the number of chanting my rounds on beads after reaching this stage just to be practical with my daily (material) time. However, I can tell you when you start your day chanting with all your attention on the holy Names you keep on chanting internally during all of your daily activities. In my case I have become obsessed with Lord Nityananda and Lord Gauranga and with Sri Sri Radha Krishna in the most positive sense of the word. They are always on my mind and everything I do is hand in hand with Them. I cannot imagine my life without Them. They are everything I am and what I want to be. Without Them my life would be wasted and I have put myself into a dangerous situation: I am totally dependent on Their mercy, dependent on the mercy of the guru parampara, dependent on the mercy of Guruji, dependent on the mercy of the servants of the servants of the Vaisnavas, and dependent on the mercy of devotees like yourself. I am dependent on the mercy of the smallest ants who have heard the holy Name �Nityananda� because they are great devotees of Lord Gauranga Krishna. I am so incredibly dependent that my only prayer is to remain forever engaged in the service of the devotees of Lord Gauranga Krishna. I pray never to be liberated from this dependency because it is exactly this relationship with Lord Nityananda, Lord Gauranga and Sri Sri Radha Krishna and Their pure devotees that are the source of all my indescribable happiness. 

I hope that this helps to get to know me a little. I also see that you visited my site www.be-pure.info and signed up for the weekly newsletter. Thank you for your sincere interest. Blessings upon you!

Your servant,

Hadai Nityananda dasa

Nityananda Gauranga Hare Krishna!

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