A Loving God and the Joy of Gratitude - a two way relation

Nityananda! Gauranga! Hare Krsna!

Dear Swami Gaurangapada and assembled devotees, please accept my simple obiesances.

I am privately studying presently Transpersonal Psychology and the writings of Dr. Stanislav Grof, with an aim (by God's grace) of applying myself in the healing profession in some small way here in Australia in due course. For some reason I was born with an ability to live 'within' non-ordinary states of consciousness very easily, through music, drumming, dance etc. As I have grown older, insight into the nature of my mind has developed, and gradual realizations of a truer reality of consciousness experience. The most difficult thing for me is not having a support network in my current local society to talk about these things. Therefore I am slowly working toward oneday giving a little back to my society here...and helping those who suffer illness.

One of the most wonderful gifts and kindness of God is to come in contact with the'bhakti tradition' as taught by Srila Gurudeva and Srila Prabhupada. So as I enter more mainstream life now as a householder (leaving behind the dream to be a monk), the ability to remain focused on God in all action has developed to some degree, and, is of the utmost importance! It is so important to keep this devotional mood as the centre-piece of one's private inner devotional life (and encounter). A life of application and surrender.

Here is today's reading from 'The Holotropic Mind by Stan Grof'. Some devotees may not understand why I read literature other than Gita etc, but for me it is necessary to have a practical life as a householder and utilize my disposition in service and thoughts of God. As I was reading the below passages my heart over-flood with joy and my subtle body erupted in shivers. We truly are in a relation with the most beautiful, gentle, and kind Person imaginable - God! The last few lines of the below description ( of a non-ordinary state of consciousness) speaks to me manifold of my Lord and master...

I wished to share these verses with you all, because I aspire to love you all. Please forgive my offences which are many, you know who you are - I am sorry.

y.s. Nava (Neil)

"....For the next several hours, this Consciousness took him on an extraordinary
tour of the universe. It was as if it wanted to show him its work. He
was convinced that this consciousness was the Creator of our entire physical
universe. It would take him somewhere, or open him up to experiences,
and he would eventually come to understand the hidden workings of the
cosmos. Over and over again, he was overwhelmed at the magnitude, the
subtlety, and the intelligence of what he was witnessing. The beauty of the
design was such that he was constantly left breathless by what he was seeing.


He continues:
This tour was the most extraordinary journey of my life. The vistas
of intelligent design repeatedly swept me into cognitive ecstasy.
Though these experiences were amazing in their own right, the
most poignant aspect of today's session for me was not the discovered
dimensions of the universe themselves, but what my seeing
and understanding them meant to the Consciousness I was with.
It was so happy to have someone to show its work to. I felt that it
had been waiting for billions of years for embodied consciousness
to evolve to the point that someone could at last see, understand,
and appreciate what it had accomplished.
I felt the loneliness of this Intelligence having created such a
masterpiece and having no one to appreciate its work, and I wept.
I wept for its isolation and in awe of the profound love that had
accepted this isolation as part of a greater plan. Behind creation, I
felt a Love of extraordinary proportions. All of existence is an expression
of Love. The intelligence of the universe's design is equally
matched by the depth of Love that inspired it.
Somewhere in here I realized that I was not going to be able
to take back with me the knowledge I had gathered on this journey.
The Intelligence I was with also knew this, making our few
hours of contact all the more precious to it. There was nothing I
was going to be able to do with this knowledge, except experience
it now. My greatest service was simply to appreciate what I was
seeing. It seemed extremely important to mirror existence back to
its Creator in '''' loving appreciation''''. To see, to understand, and to
appreciate.....end quote"

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