Re: Conundrum

Nityananda! Gauranga! Hare Krsna!

Dear Bruce, you said "What is more, I was told that because such named actions  I was informed that I had committed an offense to the holy name, and that I probably have lost my taste for the Maha mantra.

I still chant my rounds."

.... the important thing to remember Bruce is that the Holy Name of Gauranga and the Holy Name of Krishna are non-different.

In the neopyhte stage of spiritual life there is often inner conflict at various levels, and 'a great need to harmonize' and find 'peace'. Whoever advised you in the above statement must surely still be in that stage of 'conflictive consciousness and lack of harmony', or, if they are elevated they are' being compassionate and trying to deter you frompossible inner conflict'. Inner conflict is a great pitfall in spiritual life and never leads to peace.That is what I perceive from my own encounters and journey anyhow...and from reading your words.

A Gaudiya devotee may feel more attraction to Gaura lila or to Krsna lila, or maybe equal attraction to both. You have dreamed of a 'golden female'... I am presuming from this your soul and spirit is attracted to 'Gaura' and to the sweetness of 'Sri Radha'. I am perceiving that you are sensitive in heart. What better qualification to receive Srimate Radharani's Lotus Feet and blessing??? A heart free of guile is a simple heart...

I consider Sri Gauranga a dear friend, and when I lose sight of him a great sadness enters my heart! Let love lead your heart, intuit it, and feel that love. Others can give suggestions, but only you will know your soul in relation to God. Allow others that space of self discovery also...and try to harmonize  all things (within).

y.s. Nava.

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