Re: A rascal's lamentation

Dear Srinath, Nityananda! Gauranga! Hare Krishna! Jaya Shri Guru Parampara! Pranams!

I have read your honest message. We all are with you in your struggle to attain devotion. I understand you feel completely dejected at the present time. Please do not feel lost. There is still hope.

We all know it is a very and uphill difficult struggle with our senses which may let us down at any time and take us into the darkest realms of consciousness at the very next moment. Though you may think you are losing to Maya or have already lost, I think you have not. Every failure is our chance to rise and succeed. Besides, we may not get such a fortunate birth again at a time when Lord Nitaai's mercy is still very much available via His Holy Names, Pastimes, Abodes and Devotees. So we have to somehow succeed, no matter how many times we fail and no matter how deep and hard we fall. Please understand that the characteristic of Lord Nityaananda's causeless mercy in Kali is that it gives us hope against all hope. In the most hopeless of all situations, He is there to help us if we just cry out His Name.

Please try to isolate the problems which are causing you to fall down and try to conscientiously avoid them as much as you can, with as much sincerity as you can summon. We may not be able to completely overcome Maya but if we do not forget His Holy Names come what may, even while we accidentally fall into sinning, then we will somehow be heard the Lord. We may not be able to immediately stop ourselves from falling down due to the alluring sense attractions but that does not mean we should stop trying sincerely to avoid such a situation. We surely can make ourselves to chant the Holy Names and cry out to Him even when we are in that position. No one can stop us from doing that. He is surely noticing our efforts during our struggle. The result is not the only thing which is important.

Our sincere prayers are always there for you. I have prayed to Lord Nityaananda to give you strength so that you can rise and try again with determination. You can always call me when you feel the need.

Daaso'smi, BR Sadhu Swami Gaurangapada.

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