Re: Conundrum

Nityananda Gauranga Hare Krsna

Dear Bruce,
thank you so much for sharing your realizations about chanting Nityananda, Gauranga and Hare Krsna with us.

I want to share my realizations from time when I met Swami for first time and when I started to chant Nityananda and Gauranga because they are very simmilar to your situation.. At that time I was associated with one vaisnava sanyasi via net and actually was acting as some kind of his aspirating disciple.

I was always struggling to chant my rounds, and somehow or other I found this site and was struck with siddhantha, teachings, behavior, of Swami  Gaurangapada. At that time I started to chant Nityananda and Gauranga along with Hare Krsna and had similar realizations as you described . One day I wrote short letter to that sanyassi about chanting Nityananda and Gauranga, and iat once II was practically  in situation that I should choose to follow Swami Gaurangapada or to forever leave his company and teachings. I was shocked! I read so much about diksa and siksa gurus, vaisnava tolerance etc. and suddenly I was severely criticized, simply because I am chanting Nityananda and Gauranga and that helps me to chant Hare Krsna! If that helps me why not to chant! 

But chanting of Nityananda and Gauranga, it was not possible to abandon, because with Lord's mercy I relished drop of it's sweetness by chanting. So I was in very difficult  situation and acted more on less on sentimental level. Swami Gaurangapada told me at that time that I should look from philosophical perspective, not sentimental and that is right way to do.

I must say to you dear Bruce, that this may look as tough time, revising of your values etc. but all that is part of Lords Divine Plan. Spiritual journey is not flat road, it is going on amassing paths.

That night  I was waiting answer from that sannyasi, chanting Hare Krsna and prayed to Lord. At some point, while I was chanting,  my japa-mala string broke, strings which are holding beads simply tear apart? I do not know how that was possible, but I took it as sign from Lord Krsna that I should abandon association of that sanyassi because of his aparadhas toward Nitaai and Gaura Naam. After few minutes I checked my email box and found very unpleasing and harsh letter from him.

I would not go further into details, just want to say that from present point of view I can clearly see that this was perfect arrangement of Supreme Lord and that I then found my eternal spiritual master - Swami Gaurangapada. You are very fortunate, Srimati Srimati Radhika, Queen of Vrindavana and Ruler of Shyama's hearth, appeared to help you. Therefore I may understand that you are blessed by Her and she brought you here, to take shelter of Swami Gaurangapada.

Please, do not hesitate to write, read, associate, ask questions etc. to all members of this portal. We are here to help each others, to share realizations, to speak about Krsna and to give Krsna to others,.

I am very happy that you are here, and that you acted as you described. Your attitude of chanting Gaura-Naam, and actually attempt to preach about glories of Naam, presenting sastric evidences about Gaura Naam, pleased Srimati Radhika, who is Supreme Goal of meditation for babajis of Vraj, to appear in your dream and give you blessings.

Please take this situation as great bless and please dive into teachings of Swami Gaurangapada deeply and fully. That will help you to destroy any hesitation and daubhts that may remain. You are very fortunate soul, and very sincere soul because you accepted this chanting of Nityananda and Gauranga inspite many difficulties.

Please accept my humble obeisancess and welcome dear Brus,

Yours in service of Swami Gaurangapada,
                               Ishana Thakura das

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